53 Going on 14

 

Last week Pity Party was in full swing: rather than enjoying the vacation in Malta I had been looking forward to for months, I was in Klagenfurt with burns and bruises, served with a generous serving of COVID-19. I was there with my Mum, who was injured herself and had been "patient zero", infecting me, most likely. While I pitied her and could see that her back seriously hurt with every move, the subconscious is a b**** and on some level I must have resented her for "causing" me to be stuck there. Thus I behaved like a sulky pubescent teenager towards the end of my stay and we really got on each other's nerves, each blaming the other for treating her like an idiot child. I guess you do stay a child forever even if the power dynamic tends to shift as one's parents age and you also, at times, behave like one...and not always like the best version of your childhood self.